i hate this feelingggg. im with yet another amazing guy yet i stop myself from caring too much so i dont get hurt again. I cant just be happy with him because all i can do is constantly think of him cheating on me, or not wanting me anymore, or him leaving just like every other guy. So now im stuck with this giant shield that tells me to not get close because im so afraid of feeling worthless. 

i feel so ignored by you. I try to understand your commitment to football and your dad but its hard, ecspecially when you don’t text me like you used to and when you do i try to tell you how i feel but it turns into a fight. I try to be a good girlfriend i text you every morning and before every game but you never text back i feel like i do everything for you but get nothing in return. When i do see you all you do is talk to your friends and act like im not there but when no ones looking your the most amazing guy in the world. I stay with you and hope for the best and think “maybe today he’ll realize and change” but you don’t and for some reason i think its my fault. 

ps. I miss you

CAN SUCK IT!… that is all. thank you.

okay so you ever get the feeling you have to say something but you dont want people to think you’re annoying or rubbing it in their face, yeah thats me right now. I just have to say that my boyfriend is soooooo amazing. I don’t think there has ever been a day where he hasn’t told me im beautiful. He makes my day all day everyday. He’s someone who i can be wierd around and not care, he even told me that my wierd faces attracted him when we first started talking…wierd right lol. Some people don’t understand why i would date him because he’s “immature” or “he can’t take anything serious” but ive never thought anything close to that about him. He’s different with me than he is to anyone else, which just makes our relationship so much more special. Some of my friends who know him can’t believe he’s so sweet. He’s also someone i can share my intrest of sports with and actually understand what im talking about and can handle my busy schedual. Sometimes it’s hard to believe that for the last year we have been just friends and have now turned into this. Like i said sometimes the guy you’ve been looking and looking for is right freaking in front of you, you just got to look! 

so for all the people who have talked shit about Dallas and I 

YOU CAN SUCK IT!

Dear Dana you are the biggest bitch i have ever met. You know NOTHING about volleyball at all, playing in high school does not count as a qualification. My dog has more qualifications to coach than you do. You know you can’t coach when we have to pause the entire game so that the other teams coach can come over and explain rotation to you because you’re to proud and stuck up to let anyone with real coaching experience help you. You don’t understand anything about the sport and i wish youd except that. You have literally made tons of girls switch schools so that they can play real volleyball, thats selfish and immature of you. And if you tell me i have to run faster or workout more i will literally roundhouse your fat ass. I HATE you with a strong passion.

okay so i decided im going to start blogging the crazyy shit the goes on in my everyday life. This can include happy, sad, wierd, funny, crazy, stuff that happens to me.